Sunday, August 23, 2009

BiBi ( B.B)


BiBi
Ah BiBi,
Golgemin soguk guzeli
Kentin yanliz Kralicesi
Begonvillerin tomurcuk cicegi
Yesil cay kokusu saclarinin
Sen, benim gizli suretim
The silhouette of my immortal beloved
Ayna da  kendimi degil seni goruyorum
Gunlerdir ruya’lar goruyorum
Zumrut-deniz-yosun-papatyalar
Sonra
Karabulut-yagmur- ihanet ve intihar- buz-soguk cok soguk-buz
Gizli bahcesindeyiz kentin
Hint kenevirinden bir tutam esrar
Dizime yatiyorsun
Cicekler diziyoruz arka arkasina
Araya sikistirilmis bir denot gibi gelip geciyor dusum
Ruyalarimida parantez icinde yasiyor unlem ile bitiriyorum her seferinde, seninle
Baslamadan bitiyor goruceklerim
Yasamadan yazmam gibi seni
Cocuk serilerinden firlamis iki  kahraman gibi
Ben Alice sen Caterpillar
Hala  iki parmak cocuguz
Uslanmaz iki cocuk,
Yapan ve yikan
Ayrilali tam 4 gun oldu
Otogarda biraktim seni
Donunce arkani, ufledim tek tek yanan mumlarimi
Tukendikce bitiyor sari isik
Sen gittikce karariyor deniz
Once koyu lacivert oluyor Istanbul sonra koyu gri
Sehre gelmek te donmek kadar zor
Artik yorgunum
Dar gecitlerden geciyorum
Bu sehre gelmek icinde donmek icinde savasiyorum
Ara koprulerden bakiyorum ucurum assagilarina
Daraliyorum
Bir oyuncagi paylasir gibi paylasiyoruz
Ademin elmasini
Ben isiriyorum sen izliyorsun
Icim buram buram
Sonra sen gidiyorsun
Hic birsey olmamis gibi
Hic yasamamissin
Hic yasanmamis gibi
Kara bulutlarin arkasindan beklenen bir yagmur gibi
Sonunu bilirmis gibi
Alismissin, Kabullenmissin gibi
Ah BiBi
Ah
Benim soguk Kralicem,
Deli kanini akit kanima
Baska turlu gecmiyor zaman
ve  yetmiyor seni yasamaya da yazmaya da
BiBi
Ah BiBi
Momo goca kahu laluya-ya
Momo ciko kahu laluya-ya yaya

Seyhan Sitti
6.Agustos.2009

BiBi (B.B)
BiBi
Oh BiBi,
The cold beauty of my own shadow
The forlorn queen of my metropolis
The green tea scent of your hair
You, my furtive silhouette
The silhouette of my immortal beloved
I only see you on the mirror but myself
I dream for days and days
Emerald, ocean, seaweed, daisy
Then,
Black cloud and rain, treachery and suicide, ice and cold,
Very cold ice
We are in the secret garden of the metropolis
A small pinch of hemp plant
You lay down on my knees
We line up flowers one by one
Then,
My dream comes and goes like a squeezed denote
I see my dreams within parentheses and ends with exclamation point in each time
With you
My dreams end before even they starts
Like the way I write you without living you
You and I are like two tiny brave characters jumped out of classic kid’s series
I am Alice you are Caterpillar
We are still two finger kids who build and destroy
Two finger kids who never get fatigued
 It’s been exactly four full days since we got separated
I left you at the bus terminal
When you turned back, I blew the candles one by one
The yellow light is about running out
The sea is getting darker when you leave
First, Istanbul becomes dark navy blue then becomes dark grey
Coming to city is as hard as leaving
Now, I am drained
I pass through thigh tunnels
I battle for coming to the city and to leaving
I look down the bottom of the cliff among the bridges
I become meager and meager
We share the Adam’s apple like a precious toy
I take a bite, you watch
Then, you go
As if nothing happened
As if you weren’t there
As if you never lived
As simple as an expected rain after the dark clouds
As if you knew the end
As if you are so used to it
As if you already accepted it
Oh BiBi
Oh
My chilly queen
Pour your mad blood in my vessels
Or else, time doesn’t move
And
Time isn’t enough to reside you and to write you
BiBi
Oh BiBi
Momo goca kahu laluya-ya
Momo ciko kahu laluya-ya yaya

Seyhan- 


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